Here I go again....

So last week I ended up in the ER and got some test done. They called my Doc and he told them to tell me to just come see him the next day. This was the 9th, so on the 10th I went to see him to find out what the scan I had done ment and every thing. Well finale word is that it is cancer and once again things are in rush mod for me to try and save my life. I have a tumor in my lymph node that is 3cm and pushing against my right pulmonary artery. What does that mean you might be asking yourself... well it means that depending on how i am sitting, standing, walking, sleeping ect depends on how much pressure the tumor will put on my artery which in turn will determine how much blood gets threw to my heart, brain, lungs ect. So this tumor is the cause of my chest pain, my black outs, my coughing, my numbness and every thing. I got to be in what I thought was remission for all of a month but still continued to get treatment so I have no had a break and I have to now start all over. My body is to weak for chemo so we will start radiation. Today I go and get a sim done and for the next week or so i have a huge list of appiontments to go to.

I feel like past year has been for nothing cause here I am starting over.