Faith Healing?......

So there is a man named Todd Bentley that claims that he can heal people of cancer, blindness, and other things that are terminally ill. Tomorrow I have my last chemo and I will have test done to see if I am in remission but I know my body. I am not in remission. I want to believe that there are people who threw god can cure people of cancer like this man claims he can but I find it hard to believe because if you have this wonderful gift then why would you make people pay for it? The people who need healing are poor people, people who can't afford the meds when medicaid stops paying for them, people who have no insurance at all. I want to be a believer but how can a person pick and choice who should be healed? I thought the longer I had cancer the more I would be able to deal with it better but it seems to be the opposite the long I have it the less I can "deal" or " handle", I don't know it's so frustrating.. If  i was to give it a shot, is there any one in lakeland who claims they can do this? I am willing to try almost any thing at this point.