Update.....

So had the blood transfusion last Friday and ended up getting sick with brocituis woo hoo right? I go on Friday to get 3 ct scans to look at my progression and to see if maybe I am in remission. I'll know on the 15th which is crazy because that is my baby girl Trinity's 4th Birthday. But toight I was watching the CMA's and Martina sang her song " Im gonna love you threw it" I cry every time I hear this song. I guess because I feel like no matter what no one can "love me" threw it. Nothing is gonna change, nothing is going to get easier even though I have spent a year thinking it would. I am sure people are getting tired of taking care of me and of my kids, especially when I am sitting right there but they have to deal with them because I can't. Maybe I am just starting to feel liking an "inconvenience".